selfish post, forgive me...

this is going to be selfish and since no one reads this, it should be fine~

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I'm an idiot. That explains everything. Like a guy, and I'm an idiot for it.
I feel like I can't do anything. I can't call him, I can't IM, texting him comes disappointment... Like, I just cant do anything.... I CAN'T!
I want to talk to him, I want to hang out, I want to do so many things... but I can't.
I do and say the most retarded things, and what good does that do me? More distance? great...
I don't mean anything malice with what I do or say... it just happens...
I want to say I'm sorry, but what am I sorry for???

why do i like you? why do i care?
I DONT KNOW..............
you'd think that if this was just a small crush, you'd be out of my mind by now, but no, ur still there.... and it hurts...
everything hurts.... its stupid. it really is.
like really... its stupid..... v_______________v

everytime our hands touch.... i just... cant help but melt a little inside...
every touch, every hug, every little thing...

its stupid... i kno...
but i dont kno what to do....
really, i dont kno what to do, what to say, what to think, what to feel.
he's right when he says that its better to be close friends than to ruin what we have.
CLOSE? WE'RE CLOSE??? HE BARELY TALKS TO ME!!! HE DOESNT EVEN WANT TO HANG OUT WITH ME!!

im overreacting....
i guess...

i have soo many questions... none that can be answered...
stupid...
im so stupid.....

THEIF!!!

Today, I was eating at House of Curries with my dad, and then on the other side of the street, we see this girl running. And then behind her running was a huffy puffy old man yelling "STOP HER!! SHE STOLE THAT JACKET!! STOP HER!!"
So I'm like woah, and my dad was like, "what he say?" and then that was it. We went back to eating.
5 mins later, we see that girl on the other side of the street again, and it seemed like she jumped the fence to get to where she was, she then ran across the street into the parking lot next to House of Curries, and we didnt see her again.
EXCITEMENT~!!

Berk peeps

I'm starting this blog to talk about my life in Berkeley and the people I encounter. It's not friends of mine that I will be talking about, it will be the Berkeley characters that seem to be attracted to me somehow so always bother the hell out of me.

List of the few that has already happened:
~The crazy lady who talks to herself and then calls other people crazy/psycho. She poked me and called me a crack addict.
~The guy who used to ask people for change, and then would spend a little time talking to you afterwards. I passed by him, laughing hysterically, and then he tracked me down and started talking to me, kinda lecturing me a bit.
~The crazy lady again: she was bothering my friend, so I told her to fuck off. She called me ugly with a big nose.

Thats all I can remember at the mo...

What happened two days ago:
On Shattuck, there was a guy sweeping the streets while I was waiting for the bus, and he takes steps so that he can catch my eye. Well he did, and he said hi, so I said hi back and looked away. Then after that, till the bus came around, he would try to stand wherever I was looking. HOW ANNOYING AND SCARY~

Last night:
It was still a bit light out, and I was walking with a very tall friend of mine, and we were passing a corner, and a guy with his friend starts yelling at us "Get your hands off my sister! Get your hands off my sister!" and the funny thing is, he's white, and I obviously don't look white... so then we pass them, but then we have to turn around back towards them, and I try to get on the other side of my friend, but the two guys saw us. This is what the guy said when we passed: "She looks just like my ex-girlfriend."
woooow~ did he date his sister or something?

I guess that is all for now. I might update with other eventful things. Mostly amusing, I hope...
XDD