feeling ok~

I don't feel like shit.
FINALLY.
Ever since even before school started, I felt MISERABLE.
I would cry at least once every week.
I didn't want to see some of my friends even when I saw them.
I didn't want to be a part of NSU anymore.
I didn't want to be in Berkeley in general. But then again, how life was treating me, it was like god was telling me to get out of Berkeley to begin with. Goodness... my Christian friends are going to be like "It's a test!" okok! I get it! Please remember that I'm Buddhist, meaning that I probably did something shitty in this life or in my last to deserve this suffering.
But right at this moment (it might change... who knows!) I don't think about my balcony, I don't think about going home and staying there, I don't think about trying to ditch all the friends that I have and become a hermit, or stay in the lab, or anything.

haha, lets see how long this lasts. I give it a week.